Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Cathartic

Life is pain at times, when things don’t work the way you want them to. Today after a long time I have encountered a similar situation and I believe the reason for this is my own self. I have found myself guilty. I did something which I never thought I should have. I did something that was against my own preaching or ideology. I found myself to be a hypocrite.

I cannot talk about this to anyone, because no body will understand but a few to whom I cannot talk. This article is a concealed confession. At least it will ensure that I will get a night of peaceful sleep.

I was not corrupt. But I chose to become corrupt. I went on to elaborate my corruption justifying it with something that I shouldn’t have. The result of this was something that I feared. I am scared to lose my face for myself. I don’t care what the world thinks or says about me, because that’s trifling, but I care for myself. I don’t want to fall in front of my own conscience. That’s what pushed me to write this. This article doesn’t convey anything but helps me to analyze my deeds.

An apology means everything if you actually read into the things that went wrong, and set them right; even without the knowledge of the person against whom the offence was committed.

3 comments:

munmun said...

hey u sound low...is everything fine...dun put urself into any kinda guilts..its human to err..chill n pls b happy.smile coz sumone still loves to c u smile.

Abhinav said...

true..n it is humane to introspect n improve! thnx

Hemu said...

Hey Hey wait .. what exactly corrupt means .... ther is nothing like absolute .. the state of mind is what u learned from last history .. n there is no nedd to feel guilty .. learn from ur past n move to the future :)