Sunday, May 27, 2007


Sometimes I wonder what true reality is.

There is a list of 600+ drugs available in the market (prescription or underground) that can cause hallucinations. These drugs modify our brain in such a way that its normal (or the so perceived normal) functioning is distorted, resulting in viewing those things which a normal brain cannot view.

Every person under the influence of these drugs sees a separate reality associated to him/her self. It is incoherent with what a normal person sees. But then what a normal person sees is not necessarily true. Because it is a piece of hydrocarbons attached together and secreting other hydrocarbons which govern what we see! Now what secretion takes place is governed by these drugs.

There is coherence in what we all see, when we aren’t on any drugs. But when two people sitting by each other take these drugs, they tend to see different worlds. Now, essentially these are only signals generated by our hydrocarbon brains and their processing, but why this incoherence between two people’s responses under the influence of drugs.

Today I somehow feel that there is some reality associated with these hallucinations. There is a different world that normally our brain is incapable of seeing. But these drugs momentarily impart the capability of shifting to another reality! I called it reality contrary to the normal belief, since I believe that we human beings are kind of incapable of comprehending right now what is real and what is not! May be we need time and more research to know what real is.

I don’t want to end up without a moral so I add one. No thoughts are crazy, they are a glimpse of what could be revolution.

Saturday, May 26, 2007

The Wannabes

Since last few days I have started ‘wannabe’ hunting. Or rather, I must say, I have started giving a name to few people’s very pestering attitude towards life. They live a life by an image that they create in others vision. What I mean to say here is that their actions and at least there talks are so evident of their fake-ness. They would say what ever gives you an ‘aaw’ or may be they will form an image using a few words and then try to live up to that image by any means.

The annoying part is that they don’t live for themselves, in a way they do, but their actions are governed by their false images which are a result of their constant faking in different conversations with different people. And in that pretense, they kill natural behavior. Now here there is a catch, what is natural behavior? Natural behavior of one person could be different from another person. The thing I am trying to explain is little difficult to put into words, but I shall give my best shot. Imagine that the natural thing for a wannabe is being a wannabe! So his wannabe nature is natural for him. Now an analogy that could closely fit here is black people. I would say that the natural color of human body is white, but then it is not because for black men it is black. They don’t suffer from a disease/deficiency. Thus, even a wannabe doesn’t suffer from a disease; it’s his/her nature that makes it a wannabe. Since black people are evil and most people don’t like it, so are wannabes. Thus, finally an addition to human hate, hate on basis of behavior, categorization on basis of behavior. Well it is not a new thing though, Hitler did it! Hated Jew’s for what they were. Even the biggest moral court also discriminates on the basis of behavior. Punishing a murderer? That’s also discrimination basis behavior. Now, matter of prime importance here is to see if wannabe behavior qualifies for being a felony? To me it at least generates hate if not punishment.

Now how this person gets identified? Well I am no moral police, but still I mention. You lie to one person but you forget it. And you tell a different lie to another person. And this cycle keeps on going on and on. Ultimately, this wannabe is trapped in its own cobweb. But the true character of a wannabe makes him stubborn. When a wannabe is caught red-handed of its pseudo projection, it still doesn’t accept it, and it still fights to lie more and more, to defend its first lie. But it doesn’t continue till eternity, it ends with a loser statement like, “why should prove a point to you?” “Ok I don’t care what you think! I know I am right” “Get lost!” And finally, one that I really find funny, to put the ball in other’s court, “You are a loser!”

Wannabes are complex creatures in their thinking. They are very ambitious. They don’t take steps without brooding over it. It is just that they don’t’ realize that mayhem they cause while crapping from their mouth. Wannabes are like bad artists who does really sick imagery just to please the viewers, but he ultimately he receives no appreciation, because art isn’t an act of fake-ness but a pristine result of one’s true feeling.

What other things a wannabe does? A wannabe always wants to talk about his/her own-self. At times wannabe creates pseudo problems in his life just for the sake of attention. Then every body, thinking that it is some major mishap in our wannabes life starts asking him things and yes his/her purpose of life is fulfilled. Wannabe fakes about its possessions and its experiences. Wannabe acts like Mr. Know it all, sadly with a little knowledge. That’s why you can always beat or rather affirm wannabe behavior by getting into details. But beware wannabe gets really pissed if you get into details of things. But wannabe’s are clever and egoistic they would try to modify the path that you intend to take them to, that is of retribution. Exposing all the fake-ness of a wannabe! Wannabe is badly resistant to it. Once a wannabe realizes that its time for death, he or she just makes an exit. Its like a virus, who sucks on to you till the time you don’t take antibiotics, once it is on, the virus just exits you body to find another source. Thus, lived the wannabe!

Monday, May 07, 2007

पगान् (Pagaan) - Close to Nature

There is very little that we know about the universe as of now. Even if know it all we will still not be sure if there is more to know or not. Tell me one fundamental field in which no further research is possible? There are no ways we can reach the ultimate truth; with every step taken further we are one step closer but never there. It seems, theoretically only that it will take infinite time to reach the ultimate truth.

Take the example of human understanding over last 500 years. From rejecting the premise of earth being flat, stationary and what not, we have arrived at the level of explaining black holes. Just imagine how one would think when they first found that earth was round and the whole universe was revolving around it. They would perhaps consider it to be the ultimate discovery of all time, but still it was wrong.

There is an inherent nature of this problem that we are right now a part of this system. And to study it accurately we perhaps need to go out of it and see. An ant moving on a ring never realizes if she is moving in a circle (given a large curvature) for her it is just a straight line.

Infinity by its definition is not achievable. Hence a lack of certainty in universe is the only truth.