Saturday, August 25, 2007

Full and Finals

All your FnF’s are done here only. You hit someone with a stone; someone else will hit you with a stone, just that these events would be dislocated in time, so that you don’t realize that you were paying back for that particular misdeed of yours. Not that it is just related to misdeeds but your goodwill is also rewarded in a similar fashion. The laws remain the same.

We humans have a tendency to crib when things don’t seem to go our way. We tell every one our sorrows. We share the opinion that god has been rude to us, really mean. But we forget when we are being mean to other human beings. Let us talk about me only, because this is more of introspection rather than a preaching talk. I crib a lot when some shit happens to me because of some other person. And I keep on cursing that person and god (poor god always takes shit). It is true that this person is to blame for what he/she did. But did I ever wonder why this event occurred to me. Yes I did. And I could exactly see a parallel event in my past. It seemed the same story, only the roles were reversed. And yesterday’s tyrant was today’s atrocity bearer.

So, how am I supposed to behave when I find out that reason for the havoc of my life? Easy said, but once identified the cause should be pursued. Time machines have not be invented as of now, so you can’t go back and set that thing right. The best you can do is accepting it. Accept that you deserve a punishment for your past follies. And take is gracefully. I don’t say that I repent on what I did, because remorse is never a suggestion I would want to give, but take it indifferently. Try cutting the cribbing part. That will help you regain the peaceful state of your mind. This is one of those small line equations which have too much theory in their background and too much of ground work has been done for them, so that you can’t derive them every time. So, like those few formulas that you just have to cram only, do for this law as well.

Morality tells me for every wrong deed there should be a punishment afflicted. And there is no better justice than tit for tat. Only then you would know how it is like, to be, in someone else’s shoes, who has been a victim of your atrocities in past.

Self realization and self control are two modes of relieving the pain one is entitled to!

Wise Guys...

Unpredictability in love is one of the most delicate intricacies of life. These emotions impart a beautiful feeling when two minds are in coherence, but they create fear and insecurity when incoherent.

It is something in which you have absolutely no control over other person’s emotions. You cannot, just cannot force things on anyone. In a clearer tone, you cannot cultivate love in someone’s heart for oneself; neither can you destroy the love you have for someone. The mechanics of love must be very complex, and at least, presently out of human comprehension. Though attempts have been made by predictive psychologists, but most of them have been to explain the already happened phenomena rather than to predict future behavior.

There are two types of learning, organized learning and experience learning. Well, the distinction between the two is somewhat like this, organized is something that is taught to people by regular courses, and experience learning is something that a person learning through the environment he/she goes through. And then, taking a perspective for love, human beings can be categorized into a set of two; viz. the ones who have taken society standardized courses in love/marriage and others who were a little more fortunate in terms of chance that they got opportunity to experience love before marriage as well.

When I make this categorization I want to see how one of these people’s is different from the other one. A person who straight away marries, without prior experience of a relationship is a less learned man, I assume experience adds to learning, compared to a person who has had relationships in past as well. Set aside the learning, there is a pertinent question in my head, which constantly asks me about the positives of the first person in above lines. What is the motive of love? Is it happiness? If so, then who is a happy man? The person one or person two? And how is happiness proportional to love?

Love definitely means happiness, but the converse might not be true. For the first person the happiness comes from love. His/her case is fairly simple. This person always thought he/she has to be the only love of her/his life. This is the universe for them, once in, they never thought of going out of it and they never actually did (assumption for this case). So, whatever experience they gain in their post marriage love life, they are smug with it, because they didn’t have any prior exposure to love, so they don’t have a bench mark to compare to. And they our society defines rules; they would be too hesitant to go beyond these shackles and explore. So, for person one, love is happiness and the converse also holds true.

Person two has a slightly complicated case. This person has had relationships in past, he/she knows what problems they had in their past experiences. He/she knows what to expect from a relationship and what not to. This person is like those wise guys who would want to ponder over every little thing before action. With experience this person has defined rules for himself/herself. With experience he/she has realized that all these rules have to be followed religiously, else the consequences could be detrimental, since each of these rules, have punishments associated with them, which enable their enforcement. Now, for evident reasons, once a person starts thinking so critically about the consequences of each step he/she is going to lose some charm in life. After all, there is more fun involved in breaking the law! So, this person stops repeating the actions that had caused trouble in past. Remember this person has experienced all this in past, as in he/she had already seen the consequences of breaking a law!

Love is a sweet fluid, you take one sip and you want to finish the whole bottle, alas it is intoxicating at times, and you never know when you might suffer from an overdose.

In reminiscent of their experiences, I rove into this person’s mind and I picture a soul wading through the oceans of constant pain and agony, with the hopes that this turmoil would cease one day.

This person makes a note of this experience, every time it happens to him/her, so that he/she learns from it. If you were lucky enough to survive once you would not risk your life again, since you might not get another chance. This is what life is like; learning from experiences and just dying one day. That is all to it. There is nothing beyond that we can see and there was nothing before visible to us.

Monday, August 20, 2007

A Skeptic

If you let others govern your life you are going to get hurt. The entire idea of living for someone else or for others in general is hurtful. Because of its extrinsic nature, it is going to be unpredictable. The way you think about a person today might not be the way that person is in future. By living for others you are naturally privileging them with the power to play with your emotions. And believe me they are not mean or rather I would use a more generic term, they aren’t bad at all. Because had you not been doing what you are, you would have been doing what they are and thus in your own vision you wouldn’t have been bad.

Love and affection are beautiful when they go the way they are expected to. But like Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle puts a limit on how you know position and velocity, it perhaps also puts a limit on prediction of thoughts and feelings. Attachment is a state of high risk. Because it is state of stake involved, which one wouldn’t want to lose! It is the state of your commitment or rather the emotions that your body produces. If I grow really skeptical about attachment and if so does every one on this planet, life would become more predictable, and yes more mechanized as well. Because then you would know what is good for you and you would know which path to choose. However, life would lose its charm of suspense i.e. the unpredictability we were talking about; we would attain a state of altogether elimination of this factor from the society. And life would become like one of those predictable dull movies. Every human being would want to follow detachment because that is a state of less risk and thus less chance of emotional trauma.

As mentioned before, this is really a disenchanting way of living, since humans are used to living in crests and troughs, they would never want to be something like this, a life of a flat-liner. States of human mind are temporal, so is the risk taking capacity of human mind. Today’s jarhead is tomorrow’s smooth criminal, an example that with time wisdom grows. And thus to the delight of a skeptic the state of least risk is a choice of wisdom.